I had it all, but it wasn't good enough

Hindsight is 20/20 is an expression used quite often...too often. I mean, well, no shit, right. Looking back on things and saying that if you did things different there might have been a different outcome...are you flippin serious? Ya frickin think? It seems as if my life has become oh so trivial. Of little importance or very forgettable. I used to be a star. I used to have the world at my fingertips. "I used to" isn't going to get me anywhere. I still do have the whole world at my fingertips, just in a different fashion. Does anyone agree that when one door closes, one more opens? I mean, what happens if you run out of doors. If a door is a metaphorical option, then yes, there is always another door to choose unless you choose to die. What would the point of that be? That is pathetic. Even in my craziest rampage of bitterness and loneliness the thoght of death although it may have crossed my mind it was nothing more than a blip. Something that comes up on the radar for only a moment and then disappears. But anyways, what I am trying to say is that looking back isn't really going to do me any good. I have to look ahead. I have to act now and take advantage of the doors I can open now. Remember that there is nothing stable in human affairs; therefore avoid undue elation in prosperity, or undue depression in adversity.
Socrates

I have to persevere. I have to overcome my own counterinfluences.