Alpha-Numeric

How many times can I make the same mistake before I change my pathetic ways? History repeats its self and I still look so suprised. When will I realize that it is dangerous what I do. That I should be prepared for the situation instead of using lack of preparation as an excuse. The holes I dig for myself are deep and the sand to fill them is about to be blown away leaving me with a huge step to take. I take too many risks in some aspects of my life. Things have to change.