Ok, so, whatever

My friend Lindsey got promoted to 2nd Class Petty Officer today. Go LiLi! Making the big bucks now. She came over last night to use the sewing machine to put on her new patch. That was chaos. Neither of us are good sewers. Then we watched Skeleton key which was really good and then Deuce Bigalow European Jiggelo which was ok at best. I wanted to strangle my dog when I got home yesterday. She destroyed the room that she was locked up in while I was at work. I don't want to go into details, but it was a mess.

On other notes...

I'm getting a little...just kinda T.O.'ed
I refuse to censor myself on my own web site, so this is a forewarning that if you don't like what you read it is your fault for reading it.

I don't make promises in relationships of any sort. I am a go with the flow kind of guy for the most part. If I haven't made my feelings for someone clear it is either because they are unclear to me as well or because I just really have bigger things to think about...or maybe not, maybe I just don't think about it because it never crosses my mind. That is just the kind of person I am. I have too many things going on in my life and too many people to satisfy to worry about defining the status of a situation that was already defined before it started. Now before any feelings get hurt, if they haven't already, here comes the cold hearted son of a bitch that I am.
I never said I want a relationship in the old fashioned sense of the word. The relationship I want is a convenient one. I have no intentions of staying here in Florida. I want nothing to do with Jacksonville when I leave here in two years. I was not trying to lead you on. I feel that I never mislead you to believe that I wanted something any more serious than what we have. Plus, I mean it has been what...a month max? I am not trying to demean you in any way. But what is the rush. You are young. Live life. I am giving both of us freedom. If that isn't what you want, I'm ok with that. Do what is best for you because I am doing what is best for me. That may sound self centered, and it might be, but I don't intend for it to be. So, I hope that answers all of your questions.

Smack My Bitch Up

Well, son of a bitch, I'm back in Jacksonville. The place that is famous for sucking more dick than Monica Lewinski. For those of you who do not know, I shaved my head. It didn't look bad when I had my goatee, but now that I had to shave it off I look like a major dip shit. Oh well, it will grow back soon enough.

My trip to Dallas was nice. It wasn't quite as wild as the past trips home, but I still had a little fun. With my cousin basically being married and Marc going to Colorado there weren't many options for going out. Plus I got a head cold when I was home so I didn't feel like doing much while I was there. I stopped in Baton Rouge on the way home to sleep the first night and we went to the bars at LSU. Holy hot chicks everywhere. I miss that part of college...not college its self, just the women. Then I went on to Tyler and stayed at That Guy's house. We sat at his house and drank a bit...not too much excitement. The next morning I was off to Dallas. I went out one night with one of my mom's friends/co-worker and we had a good time. We went to dinner and then met up with my cousin and his girl friend at Logans and then we went to play pool at Austion Avenue. The next day is when I started feeling crappy. So after that there wasn't much going on. Everyone loved Macy...of course, I mean she looks just like her daddy. She had a blast playing with all the kids on Thanksgiving at my grandmother's house.

Every time I go home I realize how much I miss being in Dallas and how much better that place is than here. This place is like a gnat flying around your head pestering you until you try to slap it and miss and hit yourself in the face. What a bitch. It just pisses you off. Also, the women in Dallas are a totally different breed...I mean there are a few exceptions, but for the most part Dallas women are way better looking and much more sophisticated or classy in appearance. Like lets say for example you go to a bar in Dallas. You might see maybe one girl with teeth that need to be fixed. Then, if you go to a bar in Jacksonville you might see one girl that doesn't need to have her teeth fixed. Isn't that awesome. Gangly grilled fuckers.

Frickin Cowboys...Fire Billy Cundiff

One missed field goal that would have given the Cowgirls a win :-(

Thanksgiving was awesome. I got to see my whole family and that was quite nice. No, I did not see my father and I am perfectly ok with that. I didn't want to see him anyway. I drove my cousin's Infiniti G35 today to reassure myself that my Acura RSX Type S is much faster...and I think I might have to reneg on that. I love his car. It does have about 100 more horse power than my car and it cost about 15 G's more than mine so that helps. This is a pic of what it looks like, but his is black and has a lot of extras.

I am going out tonight with Tim, Shauna, JJ, Meagan and I don't know who else to Addison. It should be a good time. I don't think I have ever been to a bar with my brother before. I don't know what bar we are going to, but there are plenty to choose from in Addison. Maybe Logans or Sherlocks.

I am not looking forward to the drive home at all. I haven't been feeling well the past few days and it doesn't look like it is going to get much better. Now I know how my friend Ryan felt when he would come home on leave. He never wanted to go back, but at the same time it sucked being here because he knew he had to go back. It is tough on you. Everything I love is here.

My Perfect Woman

Intelligent and ambitious
Tight body...likes to exercise or is just naturally fit
Eyes that can melt you
A smile that makes me smile
Common interests, but not everything
Loves Mexican food and dislikes fish or sea food
Strong willed, but knows when to give in
Lets me win some arguments
Doesn't take advantage of my kindness
Won't let me walk all over her
Appreciates money, but doesn't need everything
Won't sweat the small stuff
Can carry on a conversation about anything
Can be goofy and laugh...a lot
Doesn't dwell on the past...mine or hers
Thinks Taco Bell is one of the greatest things EVER
Likes the same kind of pizza as me
Can be quiet and in the same room and be ok with that
Can take a compliment or criticism
Doesn't think she's fat because she isn't...or better not get that way
Appreciates family and gets along with mine
Loves music, but not that Britney Spears type shit
Has seperate friends, meaning not my friends
Not an alcoholic or drunk
Hates cats as much as I do and loves dogs

When I fnd her, or if you know of her send her to me and we will fall madly in love and live happily ever after.

The End

I am about to start the journey home - Jacksonville, FL to Dallas, TX. It is only 1,067 miles. No biggie. See you guys soon and love to you all. Macy is going with me so i have to stop at Wal-Mart and buy her a leash for her collar. I have to pack and then I am outtie.

Take a Look

Take a look at where you are and tell me if you are satisfied. Tell me if there isn't a day, week or month that goes by when you don't think about an instance that changed your life for the better or worse and wonder what it would be like if you had done it differently. For me personally, there are many things that still haunt me and also that make me smile. You can choose to accept them and carry on or dwell on them forever.

I have had 2 Officers come by the duty desk today and ask me if I was enrolling in college courses this term or how long until I get my degree. Evidently I am "management" material. I say fuck that. The 10 classes that I lack to get my degree will not give me any enlightenment or spontanious genius to better serve my employer. Fuck society. Fuck colleges. They are a massive rip off and drain on the economy. If people did not have to send their children to college they would have much more money in their pocket. Maybe it is just me, but I felt as if college was always a massive waste of time. The classes that I did pay attention in were not any different than the ones I did not. The instructor just made it interesting. If someone sits in front of a class and lectures...like a History teacher, why in the hell would that keep my attention. Like I really want to take down notes for 1 or 2 hours straight. Why do I have to take History courses? I'm not a History major. Plus, lecturing is not teaching...I'm sorry, but it isn't. A lecture is not much more than paying for someone to read the book to you. Fuckers. I just disagree with the system and have no way near enough attention span to follow someone who likes to hear themself talk. Fuckin college. Waste of fucking money.

I gotta go.

It is almost time to go

I'm ready, I can tell you that much. I can't wait to give my mom and Nana a hug and see the rest of the fam. I still haven't decided when I am going to leave. It all depends on what time I get off work tomorrow. I can't afford to stay in a hotel so I will either have to drive the 16 hours straight or stop somewhere and sleep in my car. I would feel much more comfortable sleeping in my car if I had a gun with me, but I have no gun or concealed hand gun license. I'll have to find a safe place to sleep. Maybe if I can make it to Shreveport I can sleep in a casino parking garage. Not looking forward to the drive, though.

It has been a while since I updated this blog, but that is because I have been in school as you all know. It was a miserable experience, but I did learn a few things I didn't know and brushed up my knowledge on the things I was already aware of. This experience has taught me a lot about the Navy in an idirect way. The people you work for and with can make or break your career. As I have preached before, the Navy and military in general is full of morons. There are the few exceptions and I am sure that with every job you are going to have bad apples, but this is just crazy. The people who have been promoted through the ranks are not necessarily the "leaders" that they are supposed to be. Also if they do attend a leadership course I am interested to know what kind of material they put out. One of the Chiefs (E-7) at the supply school I attended told me I have been cocky and rude and that perception is reality. First of all, I may have been cocky, but rude...nope. I have learned my lesson about holding my tongue and watching what I say so this statement is not true. Then, perception being reality...only an ignorant individual would believe a statement such as this. Perceptions can be deceiving. The eyes and ears are not always in tune with reality. When she (the Chief) told me that she learned this in leadership school I wanted to punch her in the mouth and ask her if she perceived that as reality. I was shocked at the insanity of this woman's intellect. As I always say...I am surrounded by idiots. But my point is that the people you work with can make or break your enjoyment of your time in the Navy or at any work place for that matter. Luckily for me I currently have supervisors who are friendly and knowledgeable in what they are doing. When I first checked in to this command I worked for idiots and assholes. It is a much better situation now.

Ok, now how hot is Fergie from the Black Eyed Peas!!

I am bored with this so I will probably write more later.

What a Joke

Supply school is so flippin boring. I already know all this stuff. The instructor keeps asking me if she is right and for any input. That is bad considering I am the lowest ranking person in the class. Flippin idiots...gosh.

I went to the softball field for my game yesterday and it turned out that we did not have a game last night. It was tonight. Ya, good thing I stuck around all frickin afternoon. At least I got to see Kathi and tan. I haven't tanned in alomost a month. I feel really pale. I need to go a bit more often so I can have a good color for when I go home. By the way I will be leaving on my journey home Monday, Nov. 21st at 6am. That way I should get into Dallas around 10pm. Plenty of time to see the fam and then get fucked up. Maybe Bed Bath and Beyond...I don't know. I don't know if I'll have enough time. 12 days and 1,000 miles seperate me from a week of happiness.

It is almost lunch time. After class I am headed back to my office to get some things squared away. I may post again later.

Don't pur your fucking spam on my comments You fuck nuts!

I hate you fuckers who think I will visit your site because you post a stupid ass comment on my blog. All I have to say to you is put a shot gun in your mouth and pull the fucking trigger. Leave me the fuck alone. If I wanted to know about your advertisement I would be the one who needs the shot gun because your shit is lame. Eat shit and die.

On to other news. I am in Supply school again this week. I had to work at my command this weekend. It was quite trying. I am pretty tired and grumpy this morning. If you couldn't notice. I will be headed home in 2 weeks. I can't wait for that. I also can't wait for this stupid ass class to be over. I have some important shit I want to post, but I just don't have the time. I will try to get to it eventually. maybe after school. I have to stick around because we have softball games tonight. Have a great fucking day.

I'm a little fricking tired here

I have been in a supply school all frickin week and it was supposed to be in New Orleans, but since there was a damn hurricane it got moved to the base I am on. So, since I am here I was asked if I would come in and work this weekend too. Which I am not supposed to do. But I obliged and I am here. I had to take the Supply duty cell phone home with me last night since I am the point of contact for our berthing and this is a drill weekend. My co-worker SK2 did not do his job while I have been gone and since there is an air show in Mayport which is where the Naval station is (ships) all the lodging is booked. I got about 60 fucking phone calls last night from people who went to their hotel they are normally at and there was no room for them. I found some rooms that were available at the Econo Lodge which looks like a roach motel and put people up there. It was a mess. To make things worse I had to be here this morning.

I went to a Sicilian restaurant last night called Sorbellos which has really good food, but sub-par service. I waited 20 minutes for a table and then they didn't make my order correctly. Par for the course. But the food was still good. It is all home made food. Yummy.

I am tired and will head to the house to nap. I just washed my sheets and have not put them back on my bed yet. I am too tired to do that this afternoon.