Red Wine, Homemade Pizza, and Crash

In the downward spiral of life we worry about many things. We pass many judgements and we suck the life out of things near and dear to us. On this great journey of dilapidation our main focus is numero uno. Ourselves. Some may say that they put others first and a very small minority of those people are telling the truth. The rest of us dissipate into nothingness brought on by the code of conduct in which we live our lives.

I watched the movie Crash last night by myself whilst my rommate fulfilled one of his needs. Jealous I was of the action, not the intricacies of the action, I took care of number one. I recently blindly bought a bottle of Merlot unknowing of the taste or texture of this brand. A pour of a bottle and the tilt of a glass later my mouth was in a blissful state crying out for more. Almost is if it was a sign of what was to come of the rest of the evening. The clock read 9:30 and I could wait no longer for the thrusts to halt. I pressed play on the remote and sat back and watched this miraculous tale unfold.

Racism is everywhere. Everyone is racist in some way shape or form. Those who deny it are fucking liars. Whether it be a momentary lapse of judgement or action, or an unconscious reaction to a situation - everyone is guilty. This movie covers a broad spectrum of intererealted events that all culminate into a heartwarming, yet heart wrenching conclusion. Life goes on. People make mistakes. Forgive and forget.

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction: Fact or Fiction. I call bullshit. At least in matters of the heart or conscience. If someone wrongs you, you can choose to forgive them and move forward. You can forgive them and hold it against them for the rest of their existence. You can stab them in the chest repeatedly with a saudering iron and stay mad at them, but to say that any of these are equal and opposite is ludicrous. Who gets to say what is equal and what is opposite. Who has that power? Not me. Not you.

As I watched this movie it was as if I was being mind fucked. Every situation evoked a different response from my thoughts and then another seperate response. The characters that seem bad have good in them and the good bad. I am still at a loss for words how my mind was in a trance and still is. I guess all I can say is that everyone should watch this movie...with a few glasses of Merlot and some home made pizza.