V-Day

What a joke it is. A made up "holiday". You don't even get off work for it.

I am a sell out. I have compromised myself to no end. I am a very straight forward person and I have censored myself the past few months. That is not like me. That isn't me. I am changing back into the "me" I LIKE. Joanne and I are no longer together. She flew to FL to come visit for V-Day and as expected things didn't go well. They started off nice. We saw Hitch, the new Will Smith movie and it was fairly good. We went shopping for me a suit and a pink shirt to go with it. It looks pretty good. She can be very fun to be around at times, but other times she works my every last nerve. She says she can do better now because she knows what I expect and what sets me off. Should I bite? I don't know what to do. I love the girl, but my feelings for her have definately changed. I just don't like who I was becoming with her. Maybe I am not meant to be in relationships? Maybe I am not ready for a relationship. Time will tell. She is a sweet girl, dont get me wrong and she had no malice or harmful intentions in anything she did. I am sure that she was faithful as well. It is not a matter of those things, though. The fact is that we did not get along often enough to make it worth while. Where things stand now, I don't know. i will need some time to think. Time to find Josh again. I need to get back on track.