Things That Evolve

Evolution: a process of change in a certain direction, as defined by our friends at Merriam Webster. It is an interesting word and to think about its unlimited capabilities makes me dizzy. We all evolve in one way or another and I wonder if it is wrong to think that it is out of our control how we will evolve. I know we all have the capability to make decisions and do as we please and there may and may not be repercussions for these actions. What I really want to know is not why, but how. How is it possible for billions of people to inhabit the same place with very little violence given the vast population of this world. But on the other hand, How are so many people lonely and unhappy. This might be taking it in the wrong direction, but...Technology has it's ups and downs. Back in the day of the caveman he lived off of the land. Even in the day of the Indians they did what was necessary to get by. Some made it, some didnt. But they had to protect what was theirs and take care of their fellow man...given that he was a friend. Now, why on earth do people not make friends with everyone they meet? Is it because of moral differences, predetermined bias, language barriers, physical appearance? We have evolved into a culture of asses. A stereotypical era of kings and queens and servants. Who is more powerful and who is too good to be seen with him or her. Ego: the one of the three divisions of the psyche in psychoanalytic theory that serves as the organized conscious mediator between the person and reality especially by functioning both in the perception of and adaptation to reality. Self esteem even. Why were knights noble. How was their blood "pure"?? Who made the Kings kings? Was it like, "Hey, I am on this land so it must be mine and since I am the best leader out of these people "the coolest" I am going to nominate myself to be ruler of this land"? I dont know because I don't know my history. Intelligence: the ability to learn or understand or to deal with new or trying situations : Reason; also : the skilled use of reason (2) : the ability to apply knowledge to manipulate one's environment or to think abstractly as measured by objective criteria (as tests) . Thank you again m-w.com. Maybe the smartest people just took charge. Does that make sense? Well, kinda. But, to me, intelligence is more reasoning than it is book smarts. Common sense per say. I don't remember where I was going with this, but I was wondering why I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself for having no friends on this side of the country. It is my own darn fault. I choose to be this way. I wake up every morning and evolve into the person that I am. Now, for the definition of evolution...it says in a certain direction. It does not say in a definate direction. The North Star is used as a tool to find ones way. Now call me silly, but I see a strong biblical reference to that. People get off of the beaten path and need help finding their way again. I am off of the beaten path and without a North Star I am evolving in the wrong "certain direction". I need to have faith that i am here for a reason and I got a strong sign of that today when I was speaking with Chief Galen earlier today. We were outside where everyone goes to use their cancer sticks and my worm dirt. I had confided in him my doubts about this place a few days ago and he listened and put in his 2 cents. Today he told me that everything happens for a reason and I have heard it a million times, but today he put it into perspective in my life. He said that being here weas a gift to me. I won't elaborate on that, but for many good reasons to tie my life together and to get it back on the right track. ...That Guy...remember my reference to cynosure. I find it odd that I am writing this now remembering what I wrote to you. I love you all. Oh ya, and sis...do what you can when you can. I love you.