Back in FL
Well, it was a long drive. I stayed in a Comfort Inn at Exit 86 in Lousiana Sunday night. The bed was so comfortable. Maybe because I didn't sleep that much at all while I was home. I got in at around 10:45 FL time last night after about 12 hours in the car. What a day.
I knew I was going to be in trouble when I got here because I called in late on Friday morning to check in. I got EMI which is extra military instruction. Chief told me to choose my own punishment...well, I don't know what to choose. I needed to pick something that fit the crime, but not too easy and obviously not too hard. I asked around to some of the people I like and respect here and Chief Galen suggested that I offer to paint the Duty Office. It isn't too big and he said it has needed to be done for a while. That is the best idea I got so I ran with it. I met with my Chief at noon and proposed it to him and he liked the idea. I am coming in on Monday, one of my "days off" to do it. No biggie. It isn't like I have anything to do anyway. It might even be fun.
I spoke with JoAnne quite a bit yesterday and the past few days and I really enjoy talking to her. We had an interesting convo yesterday that didn't really go the way it should have. We didn't really talk much about the situation of "us" after I left. I think the both of us really enjoyed our time together and that was that. Nothing was brought up about the future. After we hung up I was thinking about it and I don't think what I was saying was taken the way I meant it to. I called her back when I finally got in FL and we discussed it and I explained myself and things are clear now. I am happy about that.
My personal business at home is giving me some problems. I wish I could be there while the water is rough to help ease the tension. I know that people need to do what makes them happy. They also need to do things to make others happy. The ability to compromise sometimes is altered by the past and the present. When is enough...enough? I used to think never...when you love someone. A personal relationship of mine drove me crazy for a while and I thought that just because I loved this person that it would all eventually get better. Nope. Nope. Truck Drivers know what they are doing. You know what I mean That Guy. Suffering is normal, but it is something that can be altered by change of situation or mental attitude. Like thinking it sucks being here in FL. It is all mental. Cheer up. Whatever happens is ok with me and I love everyone the same no matter what. I love you. That should make you happy enough...lol.
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